More and more shocking passages from Britney Spears’ (41) autobiography “The Woman in Me” are coming to light a week before its publication on October 24th. The most recent of them, which the US site “People” has now published, is quite something. Spears states that she became pregnant at the age of 19 – through her ex-boyfriend and “Mickey Mouse Club” colleague Justin Timberlake (42).

For Spears it was a “surprise, but not a tragedy,” People quotes from the book. “I loved Justin so much. I always expected that one day we would start a family together. It was just going to happen a lot sooner than I expected.”

But with Timberlake, the emotional situation was completely different, the singer reports: “Justin was definitely not happy about the pregnancy. He said we weren’t ready to have a baby in our lives, we were much too young.”

She finally agreed to have an abortion. At least from her choice of wording in the book – according to “People” – it is clear that she was not the driving force behind this decision: “If it had been left to me alone, I would never have done it. But Justin was so sure that he didn’t want to be a father.” That moment over 20 years ago still doesn’t let her go: “To this day it’s one of the most agonizing things I’ve ever experienced in my life,” it says in “The Woman in Me.”

Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake were a couple from 1999 to 2002. Spears has two children with her second husband Kevin Federline (45), sons Sean Preston (18) and Jayden James (17). Timberlake married actress Jessica Biel (41) in 2012. They are now also parents to two sons, Silas and Phineas.