According to her own words, singer Christina Aguilera (42) grew up with a lot of violence and is still struggling with the memories of it today.

In the “Call Her Daddy” podcast, the American said: “At the age of 42, it still affects me. It’s all hidden under the surface. Trauma never leaves you, you only find ways to heal it.”

Talking about the incidents is her form of therapy. Even years later, some films could trigger ugly flashbacks, according to the Grammy award winner.

Aguilera is “bear mom” for her own children

The difficult childhood is also noticeable in dealing with her own daughter. Aguilera describes herself as a “protective bear mom” on the podcast. She stubbornly drills into her child: “The first time someone hits you, the first time someone makes you feel uncomfortable, [you leave].”

Summer Rain was born in 2014 and is the daughter of film producer Matt Rutler. She also has a son with her ex-husband Jordan Bratman.