Billie Eilish is about to release her new album. “Hit Me Hard And Soft” is the name of the exceptional artist’s third work. In an interview with the music magazine “Rolling Stone”, the musician reveals that she has lost herself in recent years. “Hit Me Hard And Soft” suits her better, says Eilish.
“Hard and Soft”, i.e. hard and soft, this contrast fascinates Eilish. “It’s an impossible demand: you can’t be hit hard and soft. You can’t do something hard and something soft at the same time. I’m a pretty extreme person, and I like it when it’s very physically intense, but I love it “Even if it’s very tender and sweet. I want two things at once. So I thought that was a really good way to describe myself and I love that that’s not possible,” she explains in an interview. And despite being one of the most talented musicians working today, music doesn’t seem to be Eilish’s favorite subject.
“I actually talk about sex whenever I can. It’s literally my favorite topic,” she explains. “People are so uncomfortable talking about it and scary when women are very comfortable with their sexuality and talk about it,” she said. Masturbation is also an important topic in her life. “People should jerk off, man. I can’t stress this enough as someone with extreme body issues and dysmorphia, which I’ve had my whole life,” Eilish said. The singer has spoken about her own body image in the past. A few years ago, she revealed that she didn’t want to look at herself in the mirror for a long time.
It’s different today. She likes to masturbate in front of the mirror. “Partly because it’s hot, but also because it gives me such a raw, deep connection to myself and my body and I feel a love for my body that I’ve never had before,” explains the 22-year-old. “I have to say that it’s really helpful to look at yourself in the mirror and think, ‘I look really good right now.’ “You can make the situation you’re in look good. You can make the lights super dark, you can wear a certain outfit or take a certain position that’s more flattering,” Eilish said openly.
In conversation with the magazine, Eilish appears relaxed, blunt and free. And that despite the fact that she hasn’t really been able to enjoy freedom in recent years. For a long time she was afraid to go outside the door. “I’m afraid of people, I’m afraid of the world. It’s just scary for someone like me, and even if it’s not scary, it means you’re showing yourself and being vulnerable and being seen and being filmed and so on.” , she reveals. The result was a severe depression last year. “I’ve suffered from a lot of depression my whole life. When something happens in my soul, or whatever, I always said to myself: This will pass. It’s going to come in waves, it’s going to get worse and it’s going to get better. And that always comforted me. And this time I literally thought, ‘I don’t even care. I don’t even want it to get better,'” the musician admits.
She noticed that she had to leave the house more often. And she started small. A trip to the supermarket here, a private party there. She decided to do what scared her most: “I’m biting the bullet and existing in the world for once.”
Those: “Rolling Stone”
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